I have depression

I have depression

I still haven’t come to peace with that
I want, need, to be awesome, active, all over the place 24/7, too much, chaos maelstrom

I’m not
Confidence is shit
Self esteem is terrible

I’m looking left and right for answers about my mental health
ADHD, borderline syndrome, anything else.
But depression is one of those things

And it’s like it’s killing me, mentally

Everyday a bit “less”
Less energy
Less focus
Less myself
Step by step, less and less

Sinking slowly

I want out But I need to admit it

I have depression
And that shit eats you